Craziness

It's almost been 2 months since I started my food journal, but I missed logging about a week, so really it's been more like 7 weeks. But man, it was tough after two weeks writing it down as consistently as possible and much tougher controlling my eating. I generally watch the amount I eat and how much sugar and refined carbs I take in. Even then, sugar and refined carbs are hard to stay away from.

The toughest part of these past 2 months was exercising again. And then I got a used treadmill...for free! I only started using it in the last full week of May, but I plan on using it a lot. When I started the food journal, I really wanted the chance to exercise, but I just couldn't make the time, nor did I have a good program for myself. It was the old problem of "so many exercises I can do, where do I begin? oh well maybe tomorrow" I kept it to a few good exercises, but once again, I wasn't consistent. About a week into my program, I got the treadmill. It was as if God was saying, "Hey, you keep saying you want to exercise and get fit, now you have no excuse!" and practically plopped it onto my lap. Dave gave me the treadmill because one of his clients wanted to get rid of it to make room for a new treadmill. The hand-me-down seems very good, though, since I don't need anything fancy anyway. It has a one incline option, easy control speed change, timer, calories burned, and distance monitor. Bare-bones, but that's all I need.

So now I have about a month left to my program. I want to change my habits and reach my goals a week before my birthday. So that leaves me a little less than a month. I'm doing well, it's just so freakin' tough! I let myself slip way too far into laziness these past two years that now it feels like I have to go through a whole lot of craziness just to get back to where I was in 2008. At that time, I was doing well, but I allowed the vicious downward cycle to begin once I reached a few goals. I didn't realize I was on a slow descent to fatness and away from good fitness.

I learned my lesson. If I feel like I'm coasting, it's because I'm going downhill and it won't be pretty down the road. I need to keep up the good habits and seriously watch that I don't go back to the old ones. I need to be in a state of the uphill climb, create habits of good progress, habits of success. By God's grace I can do this!